Release Day Update

   Well, it has been about six years since I was sentenced to death, three times, in Federal court. And, though I did not appeal --- and even informed the courts that I had no desire to appeal --- the lawyers (for the government and the “defense”) are still “litigating” (i.e. arguing) over whether or not an appeal should be “allowed” anyway (regardless of my wishes). The “defense” attorney’s claim that I was not legally competent to waive my appeal, so the “notice of appeal” that they filed (in 2008) on my behalf and against my consent (even though I was officially a “pro se” defendant, or “representing myself” at the time) should be accepted and the formal appeal should be allowed to proceed.

   Six years! And “they” still haven’t decided if there will even be an appeal! It’s no wonder no one on Federal death row has been executed since… (Actually, I don’t know the last time the Federal government officially killed an American citizen, but it’s been many years methinks.) At least two other prisoners here on this death row have told me (privately) that they too have tried to waive their appeals, but their attorneys also have prevented them from doing so. I suspect there are many more such cases than anyone wants to admit. (What good is “capital punishment” if most of the people who get sentenced to death either want to die or simply don’t care if they do?)

   My appeal attorney thinks the court will rule to allow the appeal, if for no reason other than the fact that in 2010 I signed a formal statement that essentially reversed my position on resisting the attorney’s efforts to appeal on my behalf, even though I continue to disagree, with any appeal, on principle. My attorney says the appellate court should consider this signed affidavit as consent, if not a desire, for an appeal. But, the government (prosecutor) is claiming that since the “consent” was not received within the appeal time limit that it is not valid. My attorney says this argument is weak from a legal standpoint because the courts don’t want to stop a death sentence appeal on a mere technicality.

   So that’s where my case stands to date. The appeals court should rule on whether or not to allow the formal appeal sometime next year. If they rule that my waiver was valid, and the time to appeal has expired, then I could be executed within another year after that. But, unfortunately for me, that is not very likely. (I still consider my so-called “execution” to be a “release date” and look forward to it with sincere anticipation.) If they decide to allow the appeal then it could be another ten to twenty years before I get an execution date, assuming I eventually “lose” the appeal. And then there is the very small chance that the appellate court will rule against the district court by deciding that I was incompetent after all. In that case there would have to be a whole new trial, and the outcome would be heavily slanted by the incompetence ruling, so much so that the prosecutor could be inclined to offer a plea agreement for life without parole --- an agreement that I’d never sign, of course, but I doubt if that’d change anything.

   Just for the record here, my position in all of this hasn’t changed. I made a mistake by interfering with the attorney’s attempt to appeal against my wishes. I should have said nothing, but my pride got in the way. I didn’t want people to think that I agreed to an appeal. So, I wrote the judge and told him that the attorneys had filed the notice of appeal against my wishes. The judge then tried to stop the appeal, but the attorneys claimed it was no longer his jurisdiction; the appellate court now had to decide whether or not to all0ow the appeal. And thus the madness continues.

   My position has always been, and still remains, that I want nothing to do with the process of deciding what should be done in the name of the false god we call “Justice”. Since my arrest I have striven to provide only the open and honest truth to anyone interested in knowing the truth (which generally excludes all marketed media, such as commercial news agencies, and T.V. talk shows, etc…). But, I have never attempted to sway or suggest what should be done in response to my crimes (with some exceptions, such as when I wrote the judge and told him about the unwanted appeal). I believe with all my heart that I should be killed, but NOT judged. The process of judging a criminal is a distraction that prevents us from seeing the simple truth of the matter; WE raped and killed those children together, and WE must take responsibility for it together, not push it all onto one man, a human scapegoat/sacrifice in the name of our false gods (ideas) of justice.

   I could go on and on, but if the reader doesn’t already understand what I am saying (which is essentially no different than what men like me have been saying since the rise of civilization itself!) then it’s not likely that any words I use here will enlighten them. So my words are for posterity, and perhaps some comfort and reassurance for those who already understand.